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Figuring out Life on My own.

January 4, 2010

Figuring out life on my own.

Genesis 11:3-7

They said to each other, “Come, let’s make bricks and bake them thoroughly.” They used brick instead of stone, and tar for mortar. 4 Then they said, “Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves and not be scattered over the face of the whole earth.”

5 But the LORD came down to see the city and the tower that the men were building. 6 The LORD said, “If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. 7 Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other.”

The Lord doesn’t want us to “make a name” for ourselves. With all the information out there regarding finances, history, self helps, religion…I find myself too trying to adjust my life so that it “works” for me. I find myself trying to change and be “better” so that bad things don’t happen. In reality, I’m stressing myself out. Yes, it is wise to be wise with what the Lord gives me, but it is not wise to constantly be comparing myself to other…comparing what I think I should be, look like or have based on other’s. Isn’t that envy? And isn’t envy a sin?

James 3:16–For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice.

Proverbs 14:30–A heart at peace gives life to the body,
but envy rots the bones.

Ecclesiastes 4:4–And I saw that all labor and all achievement spring from man’s envy of his neighbor. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind

Nothing ever good comes from wanting what others have. It leads to disorder, a dried up spirit and body and is meaningless in the end. There is nothing wrong inherently for wanting better things, but what about my heart? What motivates me…what motivates anyone? Are my intentions pure, or am I doing things out of fear? Fear of God, fear of man, envy/jealousy…it all stems from a lack of trust. The fact of the matter is that I will never figure out everything. I have tried countless times to figure things out and to do things with my own power and being. I have not really gotten anywhere. Just more disappointment and hurts. There are definitely things I need to do better and change, but it has to be through God’s eyes with His help.

Ps 37: 1-8–Do not fret because of evil men
or be envious of those who do wrong;

2 for like the grass they will soon wither,
like green plants they will soon die away.

3 Trust in the LORD and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

4 Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

5 Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in him and he will do this:

6 He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,
the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when men succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.

8 Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;
do not fret—it leads only to evil.

So with that in mind, Lord help me be the best woman I can be. Help me set aside the money, my time and skills in such a manner that honors You. Help me remain convicted of these things and give me gentle reminders if I appear to You to be getting off track. I would like a heart after yours. I want a heart that wants what you want for me. Lord, help me along this path.


Psalms 3

January 3, 2010

Lord how they have increased who trouble me! Many are they who rise up against me. Many are they who say of me, “There is no help for him in God” (Psalms 3:1).

I know there’s a plan for me for sure. At times it seems like everyone wants something and nothing is going the way I think it should though.

But You O Lord are a shield for me, my glory and the One who lifts up my head (Psalms 3:3). I have in the past and well honestly still have some level of difficulty swallowing all that implies. When I have cried to you, I know You have heard me. But it really stinks when we “go through”.

I’m sure we all feel that way. How are we supposed to feel protected when life is not what we expected it to be? There are crazy people at work…working on your nerves, a dollar doesn’t seem to go far no matter how many different ways you try to stretch it, relationships with family and friends are not where you want them to be, death, war, and lies are being perpetrated everywhere..and to top it off you are still single with a butt that doesn’t seem to be getting any smaller no matter what you do.  It’s hard to keep focused when we perceive things are going up in smoke all around us. 

How do we as Christians wrap our minds around the fact that God is our shield?  We want punishment and we want it now.  We want change and we want it now.  But that is not how He works.  We are to hope and wait expectantly for You to do “Your thang”.   He is able to do all in His will. We are never going to fully understand God…we can search and search but will never know the fullness of Him (Psalms 145:3, 147:5). But we can know still know pieces of Him.  We know God is love (1John 4:8); He’s righteous (Romans 3:26) and He wants us to know those things about Him (Jer 9:23-24).  These are just a few things we can discover about God.

I for one know You hear me and will help me.  The help may not be the way I want, but I know you do help me and will continue to do so.  I know this because all I need to do is go back and remember how You saved my life at least two times if not three that I can remember.  I’m sure there are more times, but these times stick out.  All I need to do is to remember You telling me that everything would be okay and it was…in some instances the next day and in some the next year.  What do you remember about God? What has He done for you in the past?  What has He showed you? How has He blessed you when you cried to Him? We can all think of at least one thing that will generate a spark of  hope that will sustain us through our troubles.

I refuse to let sleep leave me and worry to set in even though it appears to me that my life isn’t what I expected.  I choose to lay my burdens down at the feet of the One who can move mountains just by the command.  I am assured in my spirit that all my prayers have been heard and answered by You in the way You see fit.  Your ways afterall are much better than mine. 

Thank you for listening to my complaints, concerns, praises and worship…all the while still loving me and blessing me.

Bad things sometimes happen to good people

December 28, 2009

Has anyone ever wondered why bad things happens to good people?  I mean, you are going along, doing the best you can…being honest and helpful then wham!!!  Your life suddenly changes…and not for the better. 

We don’t always understand why it has happened or even like the situation we find ourselves in, but the fact is God is in control.  Have you ever tried to figure out and reason the why behind whatever is causing you misery?  Have you ever gotten mad at God…blaming Him for all the crud that’s going on?  You are not alone.  So do I at time and so did Job.

To make matters worse, Job’s friends didn’t provide comfort to him, but accused him which set him on the defense.  Now, we all have friends that say “I’m only trying to help” but in reality, they are not helping at all.  The point we should get when we read Job is God has divine sovereignty in our lives.  His righteousness is far greater than our own. 

1.  He despises no one and has more strength and understanding than I every will.

2. He doesn’t preserve the life of the wicked, but gives justice to the oppressed.  ***Now…I must say you may not see the justice in this life time, but know it’s coming….I know…sometimes we want it now!***

3. He is always paying attention to us, even when we aren’t paying attention to Him.

4.  If for whatever reason we are in a bind, He is nice enough to tell us our mistakes and will give instruction on how to get out of it. ***The key is listening and being patient (easier said than done).***

5.  He blesses those who decide to obey Him.

 (Job 36:5-12)

Now…this may seem not helpful, but look at it this way as God answered Job (Job 38-41:34).  We don’t know how God created the earth and all the workings of it.  We know there’s gravity, but what started it?  How did the “it” that started “it” start?  Has anyone had the gates of death revealed to them? Can you send out lightning and snow storms?  As a matter of fact who can really predict the weather CORRECTLY 100% of the time anyway?  Now there are scientists who think they know, but in all reality no one really knows but the one who created it. 

God is the standard of justice.  He performs things according to His righteousness.  So…whatever He does is fair, even it we don’t just don’t get it.  What we should be doing is talking to Him to find out the answers.  We should trust the Lord with our lives and know that we won’t understand everything.  We won’t like everything either.  In this life there will be testing.  There is no way to know in what way or form we will be tested. 

Suffering is not always God’s judgement for sin.  Sometimes there is something we need to learn, to do better  or for correction.  I personally believe that God thinks about me and has thoughts of peace, not evil when it comes down to me.  He has showed up and showed out plenty of times in my life.   He wants me to have a future with Him and to trust Him enough to call on Him and pray to Him.  I know for a fact He listens and that He wants to be found.

So…when bad things happen to good people, maybe we should consider that there is something to be learned, changed, or enhanced in that individual and quit trying to list all the things that the person “mustahave” done wrong to be in that predicament.  By the way…you shouldn’t list all the “mustahaves” that you think you did either.  There may not really be a reason, that we can understand, for the crud that happens to us at times.